I don’t want to buy a MAC. I dont want new clothes. I don’t want to know what tomorrow brings. I don’t care about a wardrobe filled with brand new things. Iam happy. content. at peace. Iam smiling not widely but there is a subtle sense of peace and calm that prevails on my face – the spark radiates from my eyes. Its subdued yet prominent. It speaks about my safe, secure, satisfied, satiated sense of being in every way. Hey! Hey! Don’t close the browser – its me gorgeous girlie – its just a new day in my life with a new experience and am sure am still gonna want all those things that iam gonna want – the boots, the gladiators, the bags et al. Its just a feeling of euphoria but more like contentment, more like am peaceful, am truly feeling the bliss. Ever felt that? Share it with me. I wanna know what your experience was lilke. I don’t know why am feeling this way for actually I should be feeling the complete opposite as my throat is terrible and am mentally drained from the work. My body is physically tired but yet after I came back from a meeting at Phoenix Mills – i feel refreshed, rejuvenated – so content that if I were to die today at this very moment – i’d happily say good bye and love to you all. Don’t miss me too much. I feel spiritually alive. You know that feeling? You know that feeling? (Yes I wrote that sentence twice because I thought it twice) Could it be the person I met at the meeting and the effect she brought about? She sure is a very spiritual person. Hmm. I don’t know what it is. Iam trying hard to express but its a beautiful feeling of joy combined with bliss sprinkled with grace and dollops of happiness! Are you thinking of ice cream? Coz Iam!:)
As I sit in my dim lit room with soothing blue surrounding me – I smile and smile and thank god for these moments of peace. Before I get back into the grind and start to get all nervy and jittery about work, home, life – I just want to enjoy this precious moment while it lasts. I feel liberated like never before like an angel came over me – as I sway to soothing music playing on the radio. You should see me now. You will love me! 🙂
P.S. I must say Phoenix Mills after 9pm has funny people you know the ones who stare hard and you wanna pluck their eyes out. I told you I will be back to being myself again.